The Rock Hard Life

3:56pm: So tired of looking at computers that my eyes are crossing
I'm so tired of looking at map documents and digital elevation maps that my eyes are crossing. Anyways, I have some possible jobs in the Geothermal field this summer. We'll see how it works when we get there.

4:00pm: too much bloody time
I'm tired of waiting for this mining company to move. I'm a patient guy or at least I like to think so. To explain there's a company that might hire me to log core at a shop in garden valley for a decent sum of money a day (more on this later). Anyways, my dilemma; to bug them until I get a job or to; 1. work for Materials Testing doing what I did last summer making a decent amount of money or 2. work for a professor who really doesn't want me to work for him but do so anyways so I can retake calculus 2 and take stats. All of that consideration given the fact that at this mining job I'd be making bank even though I wouldn't work for 3 or four weeks of the summer. I like to call it my opportunity cost itch that is getting me anxious about how this summer is going to go. Anyways, I'm going to give it to the one who can straighten out this mess and fix it only in a way He can. Sorry guys, just had to vent. I guess my conflicting emotions are about money. I like money (who doesn't?) okay, I don't just because it can slip through your fingers faster than you can say poof! The mining job would make money faster than I've ever made it, the only problem with it is that its in garden valley. I like Garden Valley and I guess it would make it so I couldn't spend money as much. But it isn't near home and bible study. Oh well, I guess I'll just see what comes... later

10:27pm: Of Frustrations and Relaxations
Whew!!! my brother's wedding wore me out this last weekend. I'm still tired and the wedding was on Saturday. Too many things to do and I have almost too little care to do them. Well, I'm working on getting a research job at BSU this summer doing some work for a professor. We'll see what happens with that. I'm hoping to take some summer school as well. We'll see what His will is in this situation. Friends, Friends, Friends... frustrating friends having kids out of wedlock and friends who have slept together who want to live together even though they aren't married. I've given them to Him for all of the stress they cause, I like to worry but I can't do it any more. I'm interested in a person but I'm just going to give it to Him since I tend to mess these kind of situations up since I'm a thick skulled dull wit who normally doesn't see the entire picture. I hadn't exercised for a week and now I'm sore and tired since I'm still getting over the sickness I had. I guess life isn't so easy as one thinks. Thank goodness for sleep, for Him, and for forgiveness. My eyes are closed and I'm fading fast. I'll talk or see ya'll later. Tim

11:36am: Italy Here I Come
Well, I'm going to Italy for field camp this summer for a month. I think I'll explore for a week after its over around Rome and the surrounding country. I've applied for a passport and there's tons of stuff to still do. I'm excited and worried at the same time. Seems Like I'm busy so much. I'm enjoying life and hope you all are too. Tim

7:27pm: Tired
Hey guys, it's been two months since I wrote a blurb on this. My niece is crying downstairs right now; I'm a softy for my niece so its kinda hard to hear her cry. I've started my best man speech for my brother's wedding in April. I'm Tired, tired... Yeah, school's hectic and I'm starting to have a large percent depletion of my bank account and it hurts. I have 18 credits and life is very busy. Life is busy and I think I'm interested in a friend from church. That will make more stress and complication. For those of you who don't know, Rod has promised his girlfriend Katy that he will propose in the near future, tentative wedding date of August 09. I've been praying for them. Some days my mind feels like it wants to fall out of my head with all the thoughts that are crammed in it from structure, physics, and geophysics. I try to exercise at the rec sometimes even though there are always distractions that I try to dismiss (Sorry, I am a guy). Anyways, that's the short version of everything. Talk to you all later. T

11:50pm: wow, its been a while
scratch beard, pet cat, look at a dumb GIS assignment. repeat... repeat... I hate Powerpoint which is funny cause GIS isn't a piece of cake but I still like it more. Well, 21st birthday was a nice relaxing day and to the chagrin of some and not so surprising not a lick of alcohol drunk. Although I did splurge on Saturday with two big nice steaks I seasoned and partially smoked with mesquite. At the same time I made some homemade fig and date bread; yes, it was and is very good. It's funny, I like to cook and maybe its because I like to eat as well. Let's just say my traditional (not border) style Mexican cooking is getting better and broader. I'm gonna need to eat some food! Talk to you all later. Tim

9:48pm: good day
Its been a good and tiring day. It's been a couple of weeks where I've been exhausted nearly every day. Now that has been trampled down a bit as yesterday was the worst of that. a midterm in my GIS class (geographic info systems and SedStrat (sedimentary and stratigraphy). I think my brain went splat. In other news my niece has grown so much. Think of the round rosy cheeks. Anyways, it just amazes me at the change when I visit in her size and abilities. So my struggle is I want to read, but I shouldn't, oh well. Those who know me well know I'd rather read than do many things. Well, I'll let you all go. Later...

9:41pm: you know your tired...
I know I was tired when I got home because I was nodding off in front of my computer, I sat on the la-z-boy and fell asleep with our huge cat on my lap, and my eyes are mostly closed as I'm typing this right now. It's been a long day and soon I'll be done with a project that's been a pain in the ... Well anyways, I have done some pretty cool Geophysical stuff with another coworker up in the mountains near Grimes Creek. It was beautiful and awesome. Speaking of awesome the wildflowers in the Hells Canyon / Wallowa Lake park were fantastic. There were thousands of them yesterday of purples whites, reds, blues, yellows. It was awesome, I do have pictures the flowers, the canyon, and a strange deer that didn't spook away as we ate our lunch. It was relaxing and very cool that high up. I recommend that day trip; it may be 450 miles but every mile is worth it right now. I wish you all who are my friends that I should see and hear from you in your forays in the world. Tim

9:09pm: work is interesting
So, I'm doing all kinds of weird stuff for materials testing and inspection right now. It always surprises me the reasons that they do different things there. I've done concrete moisture, asbestos air monitoring, asbestos substance sampling to find the asbestos. I've helped with thermal imaging for finding water lines. It's an interesting job that lends itself well to variety. For those of you who actually remember me going through my depression this last semester, everything has turned out well for me. Of the results there were two benign polyps that I had, so you can all imagine I'd do a little jig, just never in front of you all!!! (ever!!!) I saw Atkins a couple of weeks ago and gave her the Heroditus. She seems to be doing well and was happy to see me. So I've been planning a story for some reason, it's strange to find inspiration in all of these different places. To my delight there is no Potter influence at all. My great inspiration has a scope that no other world builder I've ever read has. Steven Erikson's Malazan Book of the Fallen series has a huge scope, it's a ten book series. I just want to write a good story and storyline which is honorable and acceptable to Him; I just have too many ideas. I hope you all have a wonderful summer and that I see you. Tim

4:30pm: Numb
I kinda feel numb right now. I unfortunately have to do another overnight oxymetry sleep test to see if I have sleep apnea. I want to shoot myself in the foot right now because I have a friend that would like to be more than friends who I haven't talked to in two weeks. She called me earlier but I didn't call her back. I'm not going to lie to you all. I was just too depressed to care too much about anything until I had my CAT scan done on my chest to see if something is wrong. Apparently she's mad at me cause I told someone else that I'm not interested and she heard it from them. Well, I guess saying no to almost every invitation to do something and talking in conversation about how I'm glad we are friends with plenty of stress on "friends" isn't enough. I give up because I'm grumpy that I have to have that stupid machine on my finger again. Oh well, at least I think I'm going to make up enchiladas with my brother from scratch; sauce and all. Yummmm.... None of you would like it. It's terrible for you. Anyways, I'll see you all later around life. Tim

11:31pm: answers and questions
okay, so the shadow in the x-ray proved nonexistent, I still haven't found out the sleep results. And it appears my thyroid is a little large and I have a fatty liver. Bummer, the medical saga goes on. On the other hand I have an interview tomorrow with Materials Testing and Inspection doing microscope work for them. I'm beginning to believe that I fall into jobs. Okay, maybe it was a job, but if this proves to come true then it is considered the same since I've only known about this since last wednesday. God Bless, Tim

7:33pm: apologies and appearances
I know Brenton knows this but I wanted to update you all on the weird aspects of my life. I went to a doctor a couple of weeks ago who wasn't my dad for all of those who know. Anyways, I digress; the problem I had was fixed by my dad in the end with a lovely little pill called Prevacid. Moving on in life (my favorite saying right now) it was found that my red blood cell count is 19.2 which all of you normal people have between 14 and 16. So I was tested again in the same way and it was 19.3 and I wasn't dehydrated. I had a blood gas test done and I am a little low in oxygen and a little high in carbon dioxide. This led to an x-ray with a frontal and side view. The side view showed something that they didn't like about 2.5 cm in size in my chest. This Monday I'm having a CAT scan done of my chest. The probability that it is of concern is minimal. On Thursday night this last week I had an overnight oxymetry test to see what my blood oxygen content is overnight to see if sleep apnea is the cause of my high red blood cell count. I haven't heard the results yet but I guess I will hear Monday some time. I'm a little nervous about all of this seeing that I'm not the best of patients even though I'm a doctors son. I find it all ironic that the whole thing acts like a typical project in my family. In other words a project normally starts small and gets larger exponentially. I appreciate your reading my ramblings. I will keep you all up to date as time permits. By the way I might be getting a job at Materials Testing and Inspection. They are about 5 minutes from where I live and I would be doing Petrography (thin sections in microscope) looking for asbestos (a mineral) in different thin sections. I'm excited to possibly get the job and we'll see what happens. See and talk to you all later. Tim

2:03pm: Good Times
I feel odd these days without a job to provide a point to take up time. I know homework does take up a grand majority and I feel that it will get worse. Does anybody else wonder when the real classes start? I keep feeling that they haven't really started to kill me yet. Life is good on all fronts and I'm still enjoying a lot of things. Stargate Atlantis and the new Dresden files seem pretty good to me. I hope that you all are doing well. God Bless, Tim

7:39pm: It was the best of times it was the worst of times
The classic statement that I put as the subject seems to put it all on the table the way we all seem to understand the things going on in life. I'm gonna have to take calculus 2 again, but it all will work out in the end I hope. The process in trying to find a job at BSU has been put on hold because of the American Geophysical Union meeting all of the geology teachers went to so I have no answer of where or what I'm going to be doing for money flow. All that taken aside it has been a relaxing break so far where today I slept on the la-z-boy and looked at ads for christmas shopping which still has to get done. I think I gave myself yesterday to remember why I don't want to work in banking for the rest of my life. I did something like 400 transactions yesterday and was on the phone for a good hour to an hour and a half for customers, I opened an account, and left an hour and 15 minutes later than I was supposed to. I don't know how your jobs would apply here, but the line never stopped from 11:00 to 3:00. I apologize for complaining, but yesterday was a day that when the doors closed even those of us including myself in the branch were having some loose tongues. In other news I'm off tomorrow and gonna hang out with Rod Royce tonight. Josh, if you ever need anyone to help you out with that little toy you call a Wii I'll help you out (partially kidding) You all have a wonderful Christmas and I hope to see you sometime during the break. My cell number is on Facebook.

9:42pm: well...
Well... Mr. Dependable Washington Mutual man may not be so much more dependable on the bank questions. From the cruddy schedule next semester I may be finding a geology job on campus. I'm kinda looking forward to it and kinda not sure. I just pray that the way I found my first job would also be the way I find the next. It's just a place out of my Wamu comfort zone I hope with all my heart that I can deal with.I hope science will not look at my business background and Tim

11:19am: So life's been interesting recently, my brother is acting as background in Music Theater of Idaho's Cinderella, my dad is switching medical practices after working at FPA which is now owned by St. Als (which my dad may call the deathstar, wait; that's St. Lukes), I'm going to be an uncle, school is good with the exception of Calc. 2, I'm thinking of taking 17 credits this spring which will be joyous. That's pretty much my life with the exception of my new addiction to heroes. You see, I have a 6-month hiatus for Stargate that's going to slowly kill me. I think it's ironic and somewhat sad that Sg1 seems to go lower and higher in quality at the same time while Stargate Atlantis is getting more and more momentum. Just to let you all know, Scifi has decided in its wonderful infinite wisdom to let Stargate Sg1 go to the lament of many many fans. So life has been hectic as of recent. I'm gonna be ready for this fastly disappearing semester to go the way of the dodo-as long as my grades are good. Anyways, everyone take care and call me if need be. Tim

8:54pm: a sad week
It's been a sad week since last monday when Scifi said it will no longer carry Stargate SG1, although there are websites completely devoted to the safety of its future. It makes one feel like wearing sack cloth and putting ashes on their face. Okay, I wouldn't go that far, but it still sucks. Anyways, I've put off my unfortunate duties of chemistry for far too long. Tim

11:59pm: It's been too long
Hey all, tomorrow I go on the trip I've been talking about for way too long, it's really hard to believe I'm traveling to San Francisco to help my brother move back tomorrow. I'm sorry, some of you have heard me talking about it almost every day. The reality is that I'm extremely close to my brother and I'm ready to just have one lawn to mow instead of two, and if I see one more can of paint open I'm gonna get a migraine (Katy, that doesn't include art!). I'm gonna feel strange carrying all my electronic gadgets. oh well, I probably will be eating down in the heart of downtown with one of my brother's friends. Other than that, at work it's been slow, the whole last month has been slow in my little niche of the financial market world. I feel like the more I try to be nice the more I can't be nice to customers. I think something's wrong when you come home and cannot smile and are practically dead of energy. I think that I'm just gonna pray that I can be myself at work, be the man God meant me to be. My faith chart as a line graph recently has been very tumultuous if I was to keep track, I just hope that my Father keeps watch over me as life continues once school starts. Life during school will be difficult for my personality, I like to relax; I have three speeds in life which are fast speed, slow speed, and slower speed. If I had my way everything would be in slow speed. I have some regrets from this summer. The regrets are that I didn't get to visit my two favorite teachers from senior year as much as I would have liked. I don't know about the rest of you, but it is odd that my favorite english teacher once kissed my forehead when I actually wrote a cohesive and tactful essay. For those of you in that class who didn't see that; I'm glad you didn't see it. There are some funny things that I've noticed as of recent. It seems that my bible study leader George is very accurate in his judgment of what kind of heart I have. George told me I have a missionary's heart like that of Paul since I act so much like him. Paul was a very unassuming person gifted with writing. I am an unassuming person with an okay gift of writing. I am saying this to tell you that I seem to be the person who helps people make friends in groups of people they would never have met before. I feel honored by god to get some female friends good friends to whom they can talk to and open their hearts and hurts to. I do have one question to all of the females reading this though, am I a big flirt? because a lady at work says so. Well anyways, I don't want to tie lacey for length (just kidding), so I'll say I'm off for the night, God Bless. Tim

10:12pm: A little tired.
I'll say this my friends, it's been a little too long since I've seen you all. I've been busy trying to figure out stuff in my life. How to deal with my money in terms of what I believe, how to work with it in the end, and of course spend too much of it too. I'm kinda bored because my good buddy as well as yours Rod Royce is gone for a while. Work has been interesting, I've been trying harder to be a better person when dealing with people. Although I know another friend who works for the bank reads this, selling is not my thing. The only things I can sell people are things that I know will benefit them and fit the needs that they have. It was funny tonight, after I left Dairy Queen a lady I wished luck in the line asked my dad if I worked in Washington Mutual. I laughed for a few minutes after that because I guess that I make myself memorable in how I conduct myself. It's taken me a long time to finally figure out what my purpose is to be at the bank. I'm a relationship teller, I tend to keep the relationships that we have with customers because of the way that I am at work (too emotional and compassionate) which is sometimes unfortunately my natural character. In other news I'm going to San Francisco for a day and a half to help my brother move up to Boise from San Francisco on August 16th. I'm excited for that. Too many things going on right now, anybody know anything about investing? well if you do would you please give me some advice. Tim

12:22am: Feel Bad
I feel very bad that if I bugged any of you with my cell phone, please accept this apology on my witch hunt to find out where all the partiers were. I'd especially like to apologize to Laura for my rudeness and interruption into your affairs. Tim

11:37pm: New Shoes
Okay, so I have given much thought to this as this seems to be the month of expenses to build up. So today I went and bought a pair of Tony Lama cowboy boots. Now I know what you are all thinking. Cowboy boots? come on, but if you've known me as long as Brenton does, it all makes sense. I used to wear them all the time. The expense makes you feel it in the pocket book, but it was worth it to buy a USA made shoe, made in El Paso Texas!!! For only one pair of shoes, I never expected to pay so much!!!! But it is so worth it!!!! and I know a few females who sometimes wear them too. Tim

10:00pm: Good Week
Well, My phone is now working, I'm at 208-559-3925 if you want to text me or talk to me. I'll admit I'm not the person that people want to call. But sometime this next week, I'd like to have a few people over at my parent's or brother's house for ice cream and home grown strawberries, and I'm thinking about cooking up some slow cooked ribs sometime this next week so i don't have to experiment on my parents because they'll be in Alaska. other than that, all is good in the realms of banking. Tim

11:42pm: do I have a clue?
I know that everybody says I'm a nice guy, too nice a guy and all. But why? I'm just trying to figure out why everyone thinks I'm perfect. *strokes chin with some facial hair* Oh yeah, I'm getting my cell phone tomorrow, my number will be 208-559-3925. Tim

7:18pm: I'm breaking down
Well, I'm gonna break down tomorrow and buy a cell phone, so the very very few people who need to reach me can. I'll get the number to you all tomorrow. Tim

1:23pm: X-Men 3
Good Movie, need I say more, kick butt graphics, I'm good for now!!!